it finally happened...they're gone...i jz teared abit from seeing all those cryings... i was pretty strong myself. i couldnt let myself cry. i haf to be strong. i haf alot of responsibilities on my shoulder sinz they left. i haf to move on. i cant let myself go down. so i jz gave my mom some last words of encouragement while she hugged me and cried. i didnt wana cry. its a sign of weakness. but tt duzen mean im not sad. i jz try nt to be. im happy for em they get this [expensive] opportunity to perform their religious duties. dad jz told me to take care of my sisters and the house and i jz kissed his hand and hugged him goodbye. im still abit sore wif him. haiz why am i so darn stubborn. and my little bro, didi...ima miss u u annoying little brat...i love u so much! later when he comes back he'll be known as 'Pak Haji Kemetot' wahahaha...


now nyai[my maternal grandma] is at my house and the kids[my 3 aussie cuzzies aged 13,10, 7 + my 2nd aunt's 2 yr old son]. she's cooking up lunch at the moment. im so tired out from running around the house sinz morning, mainly searching for batteries for the camera. im so fed up. cant take pictures at all this morning. aiyah heck lah.


jz finished doing farzi and jihad's F.I.T. online tests. phew!


abt the past entries tt u all read abt me writing jiat's name, i haf sumthin to say...

WHAAAT?...

why so shocked? why must tell him his name appeared on my blog. before this oso i did mention his name what. others names oso got what. besides, he's my bitch. naturally we go thru alot in our friendship. its not always a bed of roses. sometimes we get sick of each other. but we still love and need one another[as frenz of coz]. it jz so happened tt i wasnt really myself tt day and i was really in need to let out my anger and disappointment. and the onli way within reach was my blog! so there. im a sensitive gerl. every now and then i think too much or take his actions too hard. i noe how harsh he can be and if i think its too much to take at that point of time, i walk away. but he always gets me back. oi jiat! aku ngah promote kau ni skarang. besok2 blanje aku tauuu! hehehe. there u have it two best friends..forever. waah touching sey! aiyah if i haf to explain everything here until nx yr oso cannot finish. u all wont understand us one lah. so dun kpo2 jz mind ur own biznez. blah! shoo! get out! lolx...


mom jz rang up. their flight has been delayed again. for another half an hour. my oh my. what's happening man...


jz nw i wz supposed to meet fz at the airport. wanted to pass him his N-gage lah. accidentally brought it home sinz yesterday's outing to Suntec City and Benjamin Shears bridge. bt lookin at the situation at the terminal, i feel so sian. i dun even see him anywhere. i cant even see my parents to the departure gate. so i nv call him. aiyah i abit scared lah. so many family members. if they see me seeing a guy wonder what their kpo minds wd be thinking. then they'll get all suspicious and curious. keep in mind tt im left for a month without parents' supervision. dun u think they might think err stuff? so its a good thing we din meet up lah eh fz. dun worry ur baby is still safe in my care. i'll pass it to u on monday ya...


i think ive been on the net too long now. i need supplementary sleep. maybe i'll go see what nyai is up to...


toodles~